It’s interesting to watch the struggles of my ego as it tries to defy and defend against the ever increasing presence that is beginning to inch its way into my life. I love to come into the peace and silence that is beginning to pervade my consciousness, but it does not seem to happen without a lot of struggle first from the parts of my psyche that do not want to surrender. They kick and scream and act like it is the end of the world if I allow this tranquility to start pervading my world. In truth it is the end of their false little isolated worlds and the start of a bigger, more loving and connected one. From a higher perspective is kind of funny to watch all the scurrying and screaming.
You would think letting go would be no big deal. You would think simplicity and a quiet mind would be a sought after state, but to the ego the reverse is true. If you are an ego (which is a made-up thing to begin with and which we all have) your very existence is at stake. Our egos fight like the dickens to prevent a quiet mind. It is like a small child running around screaming in a library. Egos are desperate to maintain control. This seems so ridiculous, but this is how our egos operate anyway. They fight against the very thing that gives them life and existence and do everything in their power to keep the spiritual energies at bay. The question is are you identified with your ego self or your spirit Self? If you are identified with your ego you will never find peace or lasting fulfillment. You will always be struggling and suffering in one way or the other.
From the spiritual perspective, we have to let our egos rage, yet hold understanding and compassion. As noisy and disruptive as these voices are within us, they are not us. They are thought patterns that have been learned and carried down generation after generation through the centuries. If we can step back and observe these voices without reacting, engaging or struggling with them they loose their power over us. They only gain power when we resist them. They are not real. They have no real power of their own. They only have the power that we give them. Accepting and loving these parts as they are, dissipates their dominance in our consciousness. When we accept them as they are with non-judgmental awareness they start to slip quietly into the background, which then allows our true presence, our state of beingness and peace to shine through.