One of the difficulties I run into when I am being present with myself is bumping into the interfering thoughts, feelings and conditionings that are well established in my personality. They are difficult to face and quite demanding when I focus my awareness inward. They are my own personality’s resistance to being fully seen and exposed. Clearly my personality does not want to loose control and it screams against becoming visible to my inner awareness. So what do I do? I get present to what I am hearing and feeling inside even if it is unpleasant. As I allow myself to be with the inner resistance I am feeling, I have to come to terms with the fact that yes, I have all this nasty resistance inside, and my field of consciousness can be filled with thoughts and feelings that are not very pretty. It is here that I have to accept what is actually going on within my field and then forgive myself for having all this resistant, argumentative, angry, and avoidant thoughts and feelings moving through my body and mind. So as I am present with this stuff without judging it, reacting to it, or trying to make it go away or stop, I begin to recognize that it is not me. As I accept and forgive myself for having all this going on within me, I begin to realize that I am not what I am experiencing. I may have thoughts, but I am not my thoughts. I may have emotions but I am not my emotions, and with this awareness I begin to automatically step back and away from all this noise and inner pollution. And in that stepping back and looking with no judgment, just simply observing, I find a space of peace. I can take a sigh of relief and be in the stillness of what I truly am… pure consciousness, and then I am home… and I like that!